i shifted my table to louis's. im still trying to get used to the new position and dealing with being alone with my GM in the division. im just glad the world of sports guys are really friendly. I MUST PERSEVERE!! is that how u spell it? haha.
anyway.. i totally cannot wait for graduation :D i miss being a student.
;8:10 AM
it took me 3 weeks to get a job. those 3 weeks were torturous esp knowing tt some of my friends have alrdy started working. i sent my resume every single day. the first interview i had pretty much broke my self esteem. so when i saw the advert by Bread & Butter, i knew i couldnt lose this chance. im glad Jin liked me.
i just got my first pay from working at B&B and im alrdy planning to leave this company. i feel a little angry at myself cos i know that this isnt me and i feel so pampered. but i do know that i wont be happy once louis leaves. i wanna be at a company where i can really learn to be a buyer. i wanna be earning more money than my friends who are going to further their studies. how now?
;1:23 AM
hmm. b thinks its a good start. well. im only 20. this year is gonna be a good year for me. im no longer a student. and im confident that i wont be doing any sup paper. heehee.
im missing my friends already.
this is my fave photo. year 1 day was the best ever. we slacked so much.
this was taken in the proj room while andreas's grp was not discussing abt proj. haha. they booked a proj room to slack!
daniel daniel. i didnt know he's the president of rmt until today, last day of school. this boy is a really nice friend. though we dont hang out alot in school, i still feel that i can relate alot to him.
this was taken today :) its supposed to be andreas's proj grp photo,but he told me to join them in the photo. sweet :)
YEARS 1 DAYSSSS
my dearests celebrated my bday in advance. weird thing is andreas's whole family came down as well. 
Vanessa's 17th birthday. i skipped class to get her the cake and sunflower :) me so sweet.
trip to ikea to kill time in between classes. love you girls to death!
all of us went down to dxo to support andreas for his dance competition and he emerged champion!
we were so adventurous. we wanted to look for a nice place to eat and we ended up here. :)
year 2 daysss.
this is a rare photo cos its so hard to get this guy out with us. its my bday. so i guess he 'show face'.
proud moment.
days when vanessa hanged out with my friends. we had so much fun! i miss those days.
chalet. 
jas's bday. shisha and supper. the grp dynamic here is kindda weird.
welcome to taiwannnnnn!
year 3 dayssss.
prawning on vanessa's bday :) funnn! and my they are all super bimbos!
3.1 proj grp mates. im glad im not involved in the grp's conflict.
dimsum during hol. had a great time with all of them. and i enjoy disturbing chunleng and XueEr. 
little bday celebration for sil at Ikea. 
my lovely grp mates. they were really nice to me. cant wait to meet them tmr!
PerriOcean event. the only time when i really get to knw the rest of my classmates. 
WE LOVE KUISHIN-BO!!!!! kuishinbo ladies night soon my dear girls!
;6:39 AM
today's silvia's birthday. lunched at Ikea for a mini celebration. hopefully she'll be free for us on thur :) missed hanging out with them. XueEr is nuts as usual.
thursday... last day of school. im gonna miss school so badly. miss having to drag myself to school and just socialising and laughing at ppl. haha.
have been feeling very pms-y with han the past few days. im just mad that he is always sleeping when we meet up. i guess i just sort of exploded in front of him on sunday. i couldnt take the boredom any longer. hate it hate it hate it hate it. i'll never share my troubles with u again! cos u make me feel worse.
cant believe cny is this sunday. time passes by so quickly. hopefully. i wont lose touch with my poly friends :/
ok. i better get on with studying for tmr's distribution channel!
;12:15 AM
1. Maintain a healthy lifestyle. get enough sleep and eat right! i need to start exercising! most dresses are too loose when they are suppose to be fitting. i hate it!!
2. Continue to be a family girl. have dinners with my family often. at the end of the day, they are the one who will be there for you no matter what happens. so cherish them!
3. Continue scouting for jobs! i aim to look for a full time job that i enjoy and offers me opportunity to upgrade!
4. Dont restrict myself to only han's grp of friends. though its only william and all. i should hang out with my own group of friends as i can turn to them whenever i have a bad day with han.
5. Learn to be secure in a relationship and dont get jealous easily. these are the reasons that always lead to a quarrel. but of course we should know our limits and know when to stand up for ourselves.
6. Spend whatever money i earn on myself. im not going to tell myself to save it for now. im 21 this year, an age where im supposed to enjoy. i will start to save only when i know the time is right. right now, i should be pampering myself and not on others cos its my hard earned money!!! go get that dress or bag. dont think for others! ok maybe think for others to a small degree. i hate it when ppl ask me why im always left with little money when i work so much. its my business, so dont irritate me with such questions.
7. learn to say no. and learn to stand up for myself. when i say i want it, i mean it! not telling myself 'aiya, forget it. i will do it someday, one day.. which i know is never'. but of course i know my limits. i know i wont behave unreasonably. haha.
8. Build up confidence. When you're told that you are ugly, they are just jealous or trying to bring you down. so dont cry in the toilet! instead, just roll your eyes at them and tell them they are uglier!
9. my hair is like grass. so when i start working again, i must go for treatment monthly. yes, i pay with my own money so dont complain.
10. Work hard. dont be a lazy ass. an example would be right now. im supposed to be studying for my end sem test. not blogging. so bye!
haha. so abrupt. 
We've been together for more than 2 years now, lets cherish each other more than ever. we've been through so much ups and downs. from your graduation, to 2 years of army and you beginning your life in the working world. hopefully, you feel the same way as i am.
look at the patch of grass on my shoulder. refer to resolution point no 9.
;8:45 PM
anyway, i went to tampines1 topshop to get my cny clothes. i shop better alone and i conveniently bought 2 dresses then and there. im so glad i found something my size and to my liking :D
i feel like i've been trapped within the 4 walls in my room. when im not there, im either in school or over at han's house. han and i often meet after his work and he'll sleep real early and then he'll just send me home the nx morning before heading to work. he works on saturday as well. and we often stay at home during weekends. i dont mind this at all. but i just feel so out of touch with the outside world? there are so many things i wanna do and so many places that i wanna go to. i dont think i'll be able to fulfill that since i have planned to find a job asap.
sian ah. han just went to dine at a place i always wanted to go to. but i know he wont bring me there since he is the steamboat kind of guy. sian. im not a steamboat person at all. feeling more down than ever knowing that he went with his friends.
haiya. where are all my friends. i wanna just sit at starbucks or spinelli and just talk the whole day through like how i used to in secondary school.
;5:15 AM
it was dinner time. i ordered a bowl of wanton noodle. dad thought that the portion was too big for me. he said i will not finish it. i made a bet of $50 with him that i will finish everything in that bowl. he agreed.
well of cos i almost gave up cos i havent been eating right the past few weeks. but i did it. and dad said i cheated!! he claimed he saw my sis eating my wanton! and he had photos to prove( he never showed me the photos)!!
:( i forced fed myself over nothing.
yesterday marks the end of FYP :) presentation was great. dom seah said he was impressed with our presentation. im so so so so glad. but i felt a little sad cos im gonna graduate and im gonna miss coming to school. my life in tp hasnt been very significant but i did enjoy myself and met a bunch of great people.
year 1 with andreas, silvia, vanessa and baoyi was the best. we were such slackers. if i could turn back time, i wouldve attended sch regularly and on time. times at andreas house was crazy as well. the mahjong sessions and stay-overs. and so much gossips! andreas is such a girl.
year 2 was the worse. i always left sch as soon as class ends. i dont even remember much of 2.2, i guess its cos i didnt bother much to socialise. i consumed myself with Gap, han and Screening Room. i rmb hanging out with vanessa alot after sch with our boyfriends. those days sure was fun. all the drinking and short trips to malaysia. what happened?!
year 3... 3.1 was all about collaterals. i felt more like a design student. flyers, posters and booklet for terra plana and yakun. up till today,im still very satisfied with my YaKun booklet. im glad i wasnt involved in our group conflict. haha. if not, siewguat wouldnt have called me up inviting me into their group. still, i feel bad about ditching jas and rayson. whats over is over. my new grp mates are great :)
3.2 was pretty intense. so many proj so little time. my group mates(siewyue, hazel, atiqah, kelvin and bervyn) are really nice. they make me feel so taken care of. esp siewyue. she makes me feel like im a little girl. haha. shes always telling me to eat more. and i love our business proposal as well. Think Tins. selling tins. or gong for that matter. haha. hopefully, we'll have a class gathering again. seoul garden the other time was not enough. it felt like i was dining with only yiyang when the whole class was there. yiyang was really nice too. its weird how i feel so comfortable with him when we dont even talk in class and we only started talking only during the perriocean event, if not i dont think i'll even talk to him. i was contemplating whether to just go to work after seoul garden or stayed on with yiyang to kill time cos i hate awkward silences. haha. but things went on so smoothly cos he talk so much, so unlike the yiyang i know in class.
test is next week and my life as a student ends there. how weird. its been 17 years of school and you're telling me now tt it will never come back to me agn?! :(
* ytd in the bus, a stranger showed me a message in his phone just before he alights. he said he thinks im cute. mwahaha. b always tell me im ugly. nx time, i'll just ignore b.
;7:31 PM
hopefully presentation's gonna be good to save the whole thing.
haix. b and i are on calm waters now. which is really nice.
we went on a short road trip with his colleagues to Kulai last saturday. after that trip, i realised how slow b's car really is. haha. anyway, im glad b's colleagues are nice to him. they all seem to treat him like a little boy. funny to see him getting disturbed by his friends cos its usually b who disturbs others.
i havent been working. and im surprisingly still surviving well. ok. not really cos i cant shop and i havent been eating proper meals. :(
im so bored now... which is why im blogging here. i believe b is the only person who reads this still. :)
cny is coming. im only excied about the money im gonna get :) but i have no freaking idea what im gonna do without school. and ive been so lazy to socialise but contradicting the fact that i actually really really miss sitting at Starbucks and just chat the day away. hmm. how u tell me. i feel like just lay in bed with b the whole day and just stare at his face. we would talk about nonsense and a little about our future. i may even sing him a song.
ok gotta stop rambling. imma watch teen mom now.
;2:13 AM
amelia*
8 August 1989
punggol primary.
CHIJ SJC.
temasek poly.
Gap > Screening Room
